8.

January
February
March
April
May
I still recall those days I was betrayed.
The DJ stole my life as I swayed
Within the confines of a small box room
Speakers at full boom,
I was amazed.

June, july
August
And September
Oh yeah and how I remember when
My birthday was coming thick and fast
I'd love that day, it'd be a blast.
But all that suddenly changed when
You were no longer there;
The past is still the past.

October
November
December
I still remember when
You were there for me.
I still cry myself to sleep.
But now your no longer here
And you feel like a dream.

Monday Tuesday
Wednesday
I still visit your grave
I can no longer stay out I am amazed;
It's 5 years since you've been gone.
And I'm still here
Writing about you in poetry and song.

Thursday Friday
Saturday Sunday.
Everyday I try and make it a funday...
But it seems so lame being here without you.
I lie in bed all day just wondering what to do.
But bit by bit, I know I'm getting better.
And I know your still watching me when I'm under the weather.

6.

When I was twenty five
My mom wasn't alive
God rest her soul
I fell down a hole.
I've struggled for five years
And cried too many tears.
I've drank until I was sick
And been an Almighty prick.

But I never wanted any of this
Waking in the morning
And my mind gone in remission.
I just wanted a vaguely simple life
One where I could cope
With my own day to day strife.

When she was dying
I'd took up alcohol and lying.
Anything to make me feel
Anything other than what was real.
But it all fell apart
When she died it ripped out my heart
But now I'm older I must reconsider
And stop being so damned bitter.

And I know I never wanted all this.
I still wake but not every morning
I over sleep due to fear and stress.
I just want to get back to normality
And keep it all going happy
With less profanity.